So I was reading through some of my old posts on here and I noticed that my first one talked about my depression two years ago and how I was feeling the same when I made that post.
Looking back on it, I can't believe that I was ever like that. I just can't believe I thought there was no hope.
Now when I look at myself now, not much has changed in my life. I still have a very limited amount of friends and I don't fit in here at my school. Everything I do, I feel left out of, but I guess the only different thing is is that I learned to love with it.
Obviously, I still get upset and I still get angry. I'm human. But, I've found myself to be a much more happier person now. Even when my best friend stopped talking to me, when I got left out of everything, I found myself not caring. I have 11 months left here and then I'm gone. So what's even the point of worrying?
People always ask me where I'm going to college and what I want to do with my life and my answer is always "I don't know, I'm just getting out of here."
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On a happier note, I might be going to a One Direction/ 5 Seconds of Summer concert on the 30th in Chicago. It's not official yet but I really hope the plans go through. I had to miss Warped Tour this year so this would definitely make up for it.
I also had a great time yesterday. I picked up 27 extra hours at Subway and yesterday was the only day I had off so I went to the lake with a few friends and Joseph. We went tubing and we actually did end up breaking the boat but we won't talk about that too much. It was altogether a great day and I ended up sleeping like a baby last night due to being so exhausted.
Also, I just filmed a July Favorites video and am in the process of uploading it now! So check it out :)
Until next time,
Kennedy
Currently reading: Orange is the New Black by Piper Kerman
Currently watching: Project Runway!
A new season just started and I'm already obsessed with it. I love it so much.
Song of the week: Amnesia- 5 Seconds of Summer. In the first two weeks of owning the song, I listened to it 94 times.
I've also started a shake diet. Today is Day 1 and I'm doing the cleanse. Which means, no actual food for me today. I'm really nervous about getting too hungry but I feel as though I'll survive. I'm drinking 4 oz. of the cleanse drink for breakfast, lunch, mid-afternoon, and also dinner but today I might only go til mid afternoon because my mom is cooking this big healthy dinner tonight and I don't want to miss out. Tomorrow though, I will start the shake portion of the diet. It's a shake for breakfast, a shake for lunch, and then an 800 calorie meal for dinner. I WILL SURVIVE. I'm hoping this brings my 190 to a 180 by September 3rd which is when SENIOR PICTURES ARE HERE. AHHHH. 
I also had a great time yesterday. I picked up 27 extra hours at Subway and yesterday was the only day I had off so I went to the lake with a few friends and Joseph. We went tubing and we actually did end up breaking the boat but we won't talk about that too much. It was altogether a great day and I ended up sleeping like a baby last night due to being so exhausted.
Well hello there guys! So I had my weigh in this week to find out I've lost 5 pounds! WOOO! Now, I know, that's not much, but it's been a while since I've been down to 190 and I'm happy about it. Next weeks goal is 185. *fingers crossed*. It's been getting easier as the weeks have flown by. I now get full quicker and I also have cut out most of the pop in my life and I don't eat junk 24/7. I've also been trying to go to the gym at least every other day and if I don't go to the gym I try and get a quick ab workout in or something.